Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Based on David Sedaris's, "Me Talk Pretty One Day," write about a time when have you been in a situation that was new and frightening because you felt alone, new, or did not understand the rules.
In early 2009, with the economy a shambles and being out of work, I found myself doing what unemployed fathers do when their wives are working. At first, her part-time job gave her (and us) discretionary funds towards our meager budget. This was a time of doing with less, even without, a condition that we had endured years ago as newlyweds, here we were again pinching pennies, sometimes only enough to rub two nickles together. At times, the fear of having nothing to put on the table, pay the bills, or have the resemblance of stability was scary. For a family of means not a year ago, being humble and asking for help was hard. There were times we had nothing to eat and taking the family to a church to eat was a bitter chore when my wife refused to be seen as needy. The complexity of life, work, and budget (or lack of) created an environment that built resentments, stuffing of opinions, and ultimately the collapse of our marriage. In 2010, my wife left me, taking all I had and asking for child support, despite the kids being over 18 and younger than 21. To add to this my unemployment ended, and I was essentially both homeless and destitute. The reality of being divorced, homeless, and no prospects towards work, the strife created a vacumn in which I learned to horde everything, share nothing, and accept poverty as a new normality. Along this path, I learned to accept my situation, do my best with what I had, and the anxiety eventually lessened. Even today, creature comforts and luxury items have very little value to me. Being alone in these circumstances were scary. Only after living among others in similar circumstances, did I begin to feel less alone, nonetheless. Two years later, I have manged to adapt to the condition known as being 'homeless', and have learned not to fear labels. With this experience, I learned the rules of being a vagabond, and though I don't see myself as one, nonetheless.
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